3-02-2011

"Life, surviving "

When we getting older, we know more stuff about life, and we know the responsibilities we going to bear...and thats what make us an adult. Aware of the duties, do things we should do, and don't do things we shouldn't do...if u know what am i talking about *giggles*.

We hope we will have better life ahead, so we do things or tend to do things to achieve that "better" life...but sometime...without realization, we losing some very fundamental things within us. Simplicity, Happiness...closeness with friends and so forth. I am glad that i still have some trustworthy and heart-warming friends, U know who u are ^^. Thanks for letting me knowing ur world, thanks for sharing my world as well. Life isn't the same with ur existence.

Sooner or later, i gonna leave this world. Everybody does, Death isn't a stranger for us, it around us and life suppose to be like that. We live....then we die. What we going to achieve within the period, it is all about us then...Say peace.

08-02-2011

Hello, sai. It's been a long time u haven't check me out. Whats wrong with u? Are u doing well lately? Or are u fucking wasting your time around? yea, i guess i am. I am not really doing well i guess...especially just had great fun of Chinese New year, and back to this hell of place...Hate it =.=. Well, what can i expect from my life, keep doing the part time? and manage to wasting my time on my academy work? i don't really think so...

Car loan to pay, homework to do, part time to do...time is running, and what the heck i thinking all nonsense at this moment? Well, decisions need to do, time to spend, life to live. By hook or by crook, Life goes on.

24 years old now, typing nonsense in the late of 3 am doesn't seem like a good idea...Well, If i can actually call up siaukee or kahui now would be very delightful i think...Nah, angels do enjoy ur beauty sleep...i will keep that on my own tonight=)

Passing by people and u heard them telling some stories...Some stories u will never know the ending. And thats what happen on everybody. I guess everyone just need That special one who willing to listen and willing to tell for the entire life span...Well, i do want to know some of life stories about certain people, but sometime we hardly get what we want in life, don't we?

So, everything just back to normal yea...Uncle Wayne said :" The one who care less, the more powerful he will be." "Ladies wanna get loved, not fucked" ....haha, he is classic XD. Ah, what a nonsense night! Goodnight Sai. Stay cool!

25-10-2010

Today is my happiest day for these recent few years. Because i received an excellent gift from someone i treasure the most=D....although in the morning when the postman called me to get the gift since no one at home to receive it. I ran all the way back to apartment, and accidentally twisted my left leg....but anyhow, it all worth it=D. Awwww, so much of loved....>///<.

The moment i open the gift box, i smell nice nice smell from gift box....and it was wrapped with tape. One side written Happy Birthday, another side written OPEN NOW? Lol, soo creative, and i like it very much. Inside the giftbox is a Panda Air Freshener...I guess this is the thing who make the whole gift box smell soo good=) and there is another cup which a sentence written on it ," I want to make lots of beautiful memories with you".....Awwwwww, another sweet arrow shot my heart right in the spot. And and there is one Money Can written. Sai <3 too="D." berry="D.">

Then there is a pack of chocolate....=D LOVE IT!! Sweetest i ever taste! Also a pic frame which got a lion sketch inside....T____T. soooo niceee one, i haven feel touched in long time ago~~~

13, u also make me love this number even more!! the way u wrote the letter LOL sooo cute one,u dun have to correct what u had mistaken wrote~~i get it=D.....

I am sure this is the best gift i ever received in my life....such detail...so much of...efforts....so much of care.....>////<. And whole day long i keep thinking of....XD.

From today on, i know there will be few things going on in my future.

1. Whenever i eat chocolate, i will never find better chocolate than yours.

2. I will save more money whenever possible to buy nice nice stuffs for u.

3. When i am drinking coffee, i know u are with me enjoying the fragrance of coffee.

4. You will be my great motivation become someone better, and i gotta ensure ur life going to be happy like the SARUBOBO DOLLS. i wanna be your Sarubobo dolls.

All these years, i never truly feel such loved in my life.....so much of care....I hereby swear to God, or any higher almighty existence out there. I will give my best to protect you from any harms...

Wandering in this world for 23 years,

Live in sorrow and disastifications,

U come in,

Say to me,

Hold my hand, and fly with me.

Suddenly, a light glow into my world,

I high up onto the sky and looking on people struggling on the ground,

just like before me,

and while i look at the hand i holding on,

i only realize i flying without wings,

u are there,

smile at me,

Angel.

Thank you for come to me.

U give me hope, so i know what i going to achieve in future.

U give me strength, so i know i have to be tough enough to able to protect someone

U give me care, the warmest i ever had , the one u can melt my heart in secs

U tell me how beautiful is the rainbow, I have to ignore that while i think u are the most beautiful creation of GOD.

U are the definition of charm, lovely and all nice nice things.

U are the reason of anything, U are everything.

So let me be strong, so i can offer a shelther for u whenever u need

Let me be ur dustbin, where u can throw every troubles and sadness in ur head to me.

Let me be ur lullaby, which can pamper u to have sweet dream every night and then.

Let me be ur pillow, where u can cry in my arm when u wnt to.

Let me be ur Happy fruit, where u will only cry of happiness.

No matter what happen, Let me be ur side to share every moments with u...

If God is the ONE who can make it happen, then i found my faith.

Thursday Morning

Every weekend and Thursday of the week, there is some kind of Fear, Stress embedded inside and ready to be burst out...Until now, i still haven figured out what actually the lecturer want. What so special of my art center? What do u mean by One Malaysia? I myself cant even define it well....I know that theater layout have to be shoe like rectangular, so sound wave can distributed evenly, i know that the optimum distance of sound source to audience have within 20 m to have good quality of acoustic. I know that Raking seating layout maximum can raise to 35 degree to have comfortable viewing posture...dimension of seating....these technical stuff is not helping at all now =.=!! What is ur concept?!! AH WONG!!damn, u sucks~Fornication Under Consent of King ~~U!!!

Yesterday, i went out with my firm colleague to a 5-6 M banglow located in Tanjung Bunga...Damn luxurious...180 degree view from the room to sea...infinity pool connected with Foyer, u can just open the sliding door and jump into the pool right away! What really shocked me is the owner actually have 3 unit in that area which cost estimately 10-12 m in total......GOD, i wish he has a daughter or i am gay!! But i am not~~Soooo rich~~

I just purchased a car, and paying it with my part time job. But until there is no news from my uncle who help me with those paperwork stuff...Dang, i wnt my car!! Rwarrr!

I been thinking a weird question lately....Happiness, it comes from chemical reaction of brain cells or there is actually a soul living inside? And i think DNA is really a magical stuff, how come it order the single cell which Sperm met with Oval and duplicated into such complicated structure, Human Body? And these living cells not only can walk, eat and stuff but can feel things,having lust, recognition of friends, voices and doing response.....all of these just come from the simple DNA??so if that is true, if i die...it is just like death of bunch of living cells... and so there is not such Hell or Heaven? Faith, is a belief that u believe something which is not seem or hear. U just believe it exist, that is faith. What if Faith is some kind of Chemical reaction of brain as well that DNA tell u to find something to believe in so u dun give up the lifespan of living cells of ur body maybe...what the hell i am doing now-.-?

Back to the question, what is so SPECIAL of the bloody Art Center....Think think think~

"INTO THE WILD"

It's had been a week of hectic life ...And i feeling uneasy every morning i wake up...keep feeling that there are a lot of stuff have to be done. But in fact, not sure what should i have do though. The final design thesis title will be " ONE MALAYSIA ART AND CULTURAL CENTRE". How i gonna derive the "ONE MALAYSIA" concept ? Why art centre? and so many why i gonna justify by myself.

I started to feel stress and it comes from nowhere...But today, i went up with eezin. He is like waking me up in the mist."Sai, U feeling stress because u scared of failures." *Boulder drop into the calm water* A big splash inside me...damn, he is damn right about it. I am actually scare of failures in every aspects in my life. I scared of being in love again, scared of being judged by people, scared of being abandoned by people, scared of changes in life....Alright, I gonna try to do some changes from now on, through every failures in hope of being stronger man. "If u never heard of my updates again, just wanna to let u know, U are a great pal,Bye"

KL trip episode 2

Wow, my semester started on Monday. That was totally an nightmare, It is very hard to convince lecturers on the design thesis everybody proposed, there are some famous phases which coursemates now like to use it in every conversation we are having. " I said it already, dun say it anymore" quoted by YOS. " Meaning u dun understand lah..." quoted by YOS again. Just imagine that he started to teach Architecture in USM 1985 which i haven't borned yet. Maybe half of me still sperm and half of me still ovul which watching million of my fellows dying to just watching me being "ME"....Ah, it just poped out in my head. Nonsense. So, yea he sure know a lot of things. Since i am not well prepared, to be exact, " U dun know what u are doing, U dun prepare for it." quoted by YOS again. So, i surely need to find a specific 5 acres of site in Penang island since i might need to visit MPPP from time to time. So, i rode my lil bike to tour Georgetown around....Spent like 4.30 hours on bike, i guess i can ride back to home already. The reason is, i Lost in the georgetown. I been places that i never know how to get out, here are some tips for those who are totally lost. Try to search for Bigger roadways, because it always lead to main highway. It was fun actually, because i am doing the ride on my own. I dun have to bother people when i am lost or getting Hot sun shine....I got 3 sites to be proposed, hope i can make it on friday then.

And yeah, due to busier life now. I dun think i have much time to write some shits here. Monday,thursday and friday studying, tuesday,wednesday and saturday Working part time. My mum actually asked me to stop the part time work. Well well, i just really enjoy earning money by my own and spend it without worrying" Damn, i am buying gifts with my mum's money, I am having fun with my mum's money." I really need these financial independence so i can spend my money without guilt. Now whenever i buy things or treat meals, i only use MY money. Thats realy cool stuff. Feel like a man. haha

Ah, i cant stop bullshitting -.- . Back to KL trips, well excepted National Museum, i visited Aquarium in KLCC as well. There is one memorable scene for me, when i bought my ticket , it was around 4 pm and it was pirana feeding time.

Thus, when those vicious fishes are tearing meats into bone. I hear kids around me" Look at that, wow!" a white kid yelled, " Tengok tengok, Ikan ni jahat lah", malay kido whispered to his dad." Kuai kan, chi ren Yu!" Chinese kido with China slang shouted too. I found it is very amusing since they are actually saying same thing but using different languages. Is this call One Malaysia? I guess only when seeing something nasty happen, just like Pirana tearing apart those baits, Just like how Invaders exploited our natural resources....i am not that patriotisme actually. Just got inspired by The national Museum, there is one media and audio corner where a old malay man described to 3 kidos consist of malay, cina and india..always the same shit on how we get independence. One Malaysia? yea, ask Singapore and US invaded us. U will have a ONE MALAYSIA for real. Thats what am i thinking on that moment, during pirana feeding time...

Well i really appreciate Choon Hooi, AhMiao during my KL trip because they drive me around although they are busy with their own stuff. I am glad i have them =D. And yea, another experience is ....KTM during 6-7 o'clock in Masjid Jamek, there are so called ladies corner. I dun realy know why they need ladies corner until.... i realised what it called " SARDINE".

There are like every 15 mins, u got a train passing by. But only u can squeeze in like sardine in those steel moving contena. I really feel i am like a sardin being put squeezed into one tin. I hardly walk because people pushing in and yea if u wnt to take advantages on girls. It is perfect place u can do it. Because u dun actually approach the girl. All u need to do is, stand in the right direction on the hot chick u target with. Then let the crowd behind u do the nasty job for u- Pushing u towards her. While u can act innocent like u dun intend to molest her or something...Yea, They really need ladies corner to protect them from perverts. Of course i am not pervert, i just thinking on pervert's perpective.... u know? People keep saying Think Out Of the Box...Kahui accompanied me during that time tho, and i really feel have to protect her from any other harm during that time...Maybe it is perfect for man to show their manhood as well too? Well, hanging out with ah hui was really pleasant time, she is that kind of lady who will absolute listen to u...She seem can talk any shits as long as u can think of. She talk finance thingy with SukYee, "By pass or Pass by" with Angel some medical term, talk about interior and building with me as well too.

How can she dun get bored by that? She seem interested in every shit u talked about....HUI~~u gonna make a good wife, i am pretty sure. Because, men like to bullshit and if u can find someone who willing bullshitting with u. Just awesome! Isnt't it? Any male friend of me who willing to meet this fine lady, give me a call right now. (Whisper)She still single!!

And another place my hometown friend brought me to is " LOOK OUT POINT" in ampang. Dun ask me where is it, because i got no idea at all. Well, that is a realy beautiful place, A perfect place for dating couple. KL night view, Adequate temperature, Dark and abit lighting ambience, i am not surprised if seeing couples kissing or hugging there. I think that is the place made for it...I like that place very much because of the night scene. Every light dots i saw, might come from moving car,Buildings,Street lamps...they keep blinking in the dark...and thats really beautiful because if u use ur imagination abit. U can imagine in every light dots, People are doing their daily activities, watching hongkong dramas, studying for exam, OT for work, Chit-chating in balcony, having great time in Bedroom....haha. So every light dot, it mean something is happening in the city and i feel like a God watching them from above....imaginary one. Wakaka, i might want to zoom out Bedroom part if i can*giggles*.

And thanks for my buddies, weijian,old dog, ah ka. Because they with me on the last two day of KL too. Visiting Zoo Negara, Titiwangsa Park....and there is a Triangle like building made of many triangles...i really want to know what is that building tho....Yea, about the Zoo Negara...it's bit disappointing actually. I think Taiping Zoo better than it. I mean the facilities, the atmosphere and maintenance...In overall, it was a great trip after all. Hmm, i should get a camera next time. Hoping i will have my next trip soon. Ciao! Time to watch " IT Crowns", freaking hilarious stuff!

Kuala Lumpur 5 days trip

7-7-2010

My bus departed from my hometown at 2.35 pm, which was delayed 1 hour for no reason-.-. Anyhow, i am still excited because it's been a Loooooong time i haven't travel. I reach KL around 6-7pm. The bus stopped at Bukit Jalil, choon hooi told me to board on KMT to go KLCC to meet him. On my way to the Station, i get caught by a youngster, 22 years old. Claiming that i won somekind of prizes and have to go their center to claim the prizes. Well, i knew they try to fool me and cheat some of my pocket money. But i was curious how they cheat ppl and the progress going, so i pretened i was very excited about the prize stuff. " Why u so excited as i am the winner of prize?", i said. "Because I am happy for u?". He said. I nodded. " Where u from?" i asked. I looked into his eyes, He avoided my eyesight and said, "I am from Kota Bahru, so i dun speak cantonese well..." He feel uneasy being stared by me, i can tell that by his hand rubbing. Then i went to the place which he called Office. That's look sooo awful, if u ever watch Gangster Movie of Hongkong, thats exactly place like that. People smoking, Techno musics playing...i was so shocked how come people can be fooled by the terrible scene. So i sat down in a room, and here come a Tomboy. When he/she came in. " Please be seated", i said. He/she was puzzled by my greet though, thing getting interesting for me=D. Then i took the control of the conversation," Hello, My name is ahsai, how bout u?" "How old are u exactly?" "How many years u been worked?" i tried to bomb he/her with questions. He/she get panicked and started to telling me how should i get my prizes, how much money in my credit card, what prizes offered...then i just said, " Do u know Junishu?i worked there at 2006." He/she said, " So u are our senior?" " Yea, sort of", i answered. " When u try to convince ur customer, u should not get excited than the client" " Stop writing things in paper, tell ur customers in short and simple sentences, get them excited" " Dun avoid eye contact, human sensitive about body language"i said. I felt the glory of winning that moment!! IT WAS SO FUN! THEY FACE TURN INTO SO AWKWARD AND STUPID LOOK!!

But then, i realised if i doesn't know they are "GUAGUALE", i must be fooled. Because, they are kinda good in setting psychology traps and luring prey in...Kuala Lumpur, a place u can't never put down ur defensive wall against strangers i guess.

8-7-2010

Wake up in the morning around 8.30 am in Ahmiao's Puchong house. After breakfast,he fetched me to the KMT nearby , if not mistaken, it is called Serdang. I planned to visit National Museum today, thus i reached KL sentral by KMT. Then turned Putra LRT to Kelana Jaya. Yea, i was totally a fool, when i get to Kelana Jaya." How much to National Museum yeah?" I asked. " Macha, National Museum far from here lah, u should go Bangsar , it is much easier for u" An Indian texi driver said. Damn, that's was lame =.=. Then i turned back to Bangsar as he said, it was already 12 pm. Then i get in a texi, and the driver is chinese. He was very talkative tho. " Uncle, if i want to go National Museum by bus, what number huh? i asked. " U asked a monk to lend u a comb now, i never board a bus since 30 years ago." He laughed. "Haha" i laughed in silly face too." Young boy, why go to Museum by urself? No with wear skirt one? U must be an lonely man. " He teased." Yea, i am...i was attracted by the Coffin exhibition." I said. " U must be a weirdo too!" He laughed aloud. "I think i am, ppl used to call me that tho." i answered. I started thinking am i a weirdo and lonely man.....Yea, he got his point. =.=. Anyhow, It was a really eye-opener though. Walking alone and seeing things alone...i kinda like it. Feel so free, i dun have to bother people, people dun bother me. I got my own time, then i realised, i can have full privacy too even in public space. I dun have camera along. In short, there are stones, weapons, antique, clothes,paperwork...but, if u see them one by one and try to read those descriptions, plus imagination how people used these stuff. It gonna take u around 4- 5 hours to able to finish the Museum exhibition. Well, i spent that much time, and i dun really manage to read all tho....argh, i gotta stop here for now. Comics is calling my name...

*To Be Continued*